Some Girls Prefer Carnations: Eulogy for my port

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Eulogy for my port

Port, I requested your installation 4 years ago

Because you protect me from pain, this I know

Thenyou tried to kill me

With bacteria you fill me

So tomorrow it is time for you to go.

Your service to me I most appreciate

The awfulness of cancer treatment you did alleviate

I despised you at first,

thought you were the worst

Until the vein access you did mediate

BUT Saturday i was to start vacation with my family

Instead you yielded bacterial growth, damningly

I drove to an emergency room

To stave off my doom

And receive IV antibiotics lengthily

Now I lie in my hospital bed

Thinking of these words to be said

About the trusty port

I’m about to abort

To delay winding up dead

8 comments:

NJuly 15, 2018 at 11:40 PM
Very poetic ... And so frustrating! At least we know where those pesky fevers were coming from. Let me know I you need anything. (N from work)
ReplyDelete
Replies
MarthaJuly 16, 2018 at 9:46 AM
Booooooooo. But! You must still have some energy if you rhyme alleviate and mediate, lol!
ReplyDelete
Replies
Rad ScientistJuly 16, 2018 at 5:31 PM
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
This comment encompasses: 1) my relief that you have figured out the cause of fevers and are getting it removed, 2) my terror that this has been going on, and 3) my slight desire to remind you to listen to your body and doctors, and not tough it out!! of course, it's your body, and you were 100% right not to be worried about the bone scan, but still.:) love you lots!!
ReplyDelete
Replies
Rad ScientistJuly 16, 2018 at 5:42 PM
And in case that comment was too flip, 1) I am so sorry you are in the hospital instead of at Unistar(right?), that sucks!!!! I hope you get better very very soon, and 2) I am going to assume that this is a direct result of cleaning the toilet and it is definitely time to get a maid. xoxoxoxo
ReplyDelete
Replies
PPJuly 17, 2018 at 9:42 AM
That.Sucks. Hope the rest of your week goes swimmingly. Love ya, Kiddo! -PP
ReplyDelete
Replies
AmiJuly 17, 2018 at 9:45 AM
Add a quarter to the swear jar.... Damn it port! But as others mentioned, glad you know what was up with the random fevers. Hang in there. We all love you here and are sending healing vibes your way.
ReplyDelete
Replies

Add comment

Books I've read recently

TRUTH AND BEAUTY by Ann Patchett "'Grief isn't something to "be gotten through." It has no life of its own like that, it's just plain and simply there.'" and "History is strangely incomprehensible when you're standing in the middle of it."
THE PATRON SAINT OF LIARS by Ann Patchett "I wanted to be able to stop hoping that she would turn into something else."
MY OWN COUNTRY by Abraham Verghese "I remember the acts of human kindness that illumine our world."
IN THE COMPANY OF CHEERFUL LADIES: No. 1 LADIES' DETECTIVE AGENCY NOVEL #6 by Alexander McCall Smith
CEREMONY by Leslie Marmon Silko
THE ELEGANCE OF THE HEDGEHOG by Muriel Barbery "There's so much humanity in a love of trees, so much nostalgia for our first sense of wonder, so much power in just feeling our own insignificance when we are surrounded by nature..."
A WALK IN THE WOODS by Bill Bryson
THE LACUNA by Barbara Kingsolver "'Soli, let me tell you. The most important thing about a person is always the thing you don't know.'"
AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A FACE by Lucy Grealy "Sooner or later we all have to learn the words with which to name our own private losses..." and "Part of the job of being human is to consistently underestimate our effect on other people..." and "Sometimes the briefest moments capture us, force us to take them in, and demand that we live the rest of our lives in reference to them."
WATER FOR ELEPHANTS by Sarah Gruen "Age is a terrible thief. Just when you're getting the hang of life, it knocks your legs out from under you and stoops your back. It makes you ache and muddies your head and silently spreads cancer throughout your spouse."
THE HELP by Kathryn Stockett "'I have decided not to die.'" and "Oh, I just break down then. It's like two years a doing and trying and hoping all come out at once."
THE TENNIS PARTNER by Abraham Verghese "Would that I had the chance in my sons' lifetime and my own to one day explain to them all the forces that moved me."
THE BLUEST EYE by Toni Morrison "And then the tears rushed down his cheeks, to make a bouquet under his chin."
REMARKABLE CREATURES by Tracy Chevalier "My life led up to that moment, then led away again, like the tide making its highest mark on the beach and then retreating."
RAMONA QUIMBY, AGE 8 by Beverly Cleary "Mrs. Quimby smiled and said, 'I can tell you're beginning to get well when you act like a wounded tiger.'"
THE SUN ALSO RISES by Ernest Hemingway "You see, Mr. Barnes, it is because I have lived so very much that now I can enjoy everything so well."
THE FORGOTTEN GARDEN by Kate Morton "The happiest folk are those that are busy, for their minds are starved of time to seek out woe." And, speaking of hospitals: "An irony that a place relying so heavily on routine should operate so resolutely outside time's usual rhythms."
THE HUNGER GAMES by Suzanne Collins "Of course, the odds have not been very dependable of late."
THE IMMORTAL LIFE OF HENRIETTA LACKS by Rebecca Skloot "That cancer was a terrible thing."
THE THIEF OF ALWAYS by Clive Barker "Was there some way...to take back the stolen years, and live them here, with the people who loved him, and whom he loved dearly in return?"
CUTTING FOR STONE by Abraham Verghese "The world turns on our every action, and our every omission, whether we know it or not." Best book I've read in a year

Some Girls Prefer Carnations

Pages

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Eulogy for my port

8 comments:

Contact the author

Total Pageviews