Monday, December 6, 2010

Interview Eve

I think I just finished putting together my presentation for tomorrow.  I have to give a 50-minute powerpoint presentation tomorrow as part of my job interview.  I've done this sort of thing before, so it's not as bad as it sounds, but it's a lot of work to put together this sort of presentation, no matter how practiced you are.  I thought I had it done hours ago, but tonight when I sat down to practice (not until 8:45, mind you), I found enough errors and incompletions to keep me busy until now, and it's after 10.  Some of you are thinking, "no problem, the night is still young."  Not me.  I've never been one to study or work late, and lingering chemo fatigue makes this impossible even if I wanted to.  But I'll force myself to click through it one more time and think through my transitions (always my weakness and I don't want any surprises tomorrow).  It's a real bummer that it's so late because I had something else for work that I needed to finish tonight, in addition to a desire to call my friend Martha (hi, Martha!  How are you?  I'll call on Tuesday night!).  At least I got the laundry folded and the blog updated, and there's always time for flossing!

Even stronger than my nervousness about the interview is my fear of Wednesday's chemotherapy.  Nope, I'm still not used to it.  I feel like a child (specifically, a red-haired three-year-old child) because my feeling is so basically and powerfully "I don't want to" regardless of the logic I throw at it.  I know that it might be saving my life, yada yada yada.  I still don't want to do it.  I hate the sickness, but mostly I hate the stress that it has brought to me and my family.  I hate my "must complete before Wednesday" to-do lists.  I've gotta stop making those.

Here's what I LOVE:  all of the people who have called or emailed their support for me tomorrow!  And those of you who haven't, I love you, too.  I'm going to do the best I can on the best possible day that I could have!  I just might have to caffeinate to get those brain cells to fire a bit faster. 

  

11 comments:

  1. Good luck Heather! Hope your interview is outstanding! xoxo Mallary

    ReplyDelete
  2. I know you will do great - sending you good luck vibes! - Amanda

    ReplyDelete
  3. Ahhhhhh.... I just saw the scaffold! Yay! I love the assortment of facts you accumulated. I'm so excited to talk tonight! - Martha

    ReplyDelete
  4. Good luck Heather! Sending smart & alert thoughts your way!

    ReplyDelete
  5. I heard through the familial grapevine that the presentation went very well. Congrats! I'm pulling for you :)

    Oh, and sorry you left before I came back on Saturday - I didn't think I'd be gone that long...

    ReplyDelete
  6. Hey Heather, hope today went well and you're pleased with all the hard work you put into it! I'm sure you rocked today! Sorry that tomorrow will suck and that there's nothing anyone can really do to make it better. But I will be sending good thoughts your way and I'm taking requests if you want anything in particular as a treat for afterwards (this can include but is not limited to cooking, baking, babysitting services, girl time, and Stitch n Bitch sessions (once you're less tired). Good luck tomorrow!

    ReplyDelete
  7. I am so confident in you I'm not even worried about the interview. I'm sure you rocked it.
    Hang in there tomorrow. I love and love you. I sure hope Ian told you what a HUGE nerd I was at the Science Center with MY mittens on a string. Yes, mine. I took them off as soon as I got home. So, so embarrassed.

    ReplyDelete
  8. I love to see you on the academic prowl. You are Sheba, Queen of the jungle. No doubts about your success. Makes me smile just thinking about it. They will be lucky to get you.

    Never knew 3 weeks to come around so fast. We'll all be pitching in in the days ahead to help you & your family the best we know how. All my love to you Wednesday.

    ReplyDelete
  9. I second what Sandra said. Expecially the Stitch n Bitch part :)

    ReplyDelete
  10. Sorry I missed your talk. Heard that you set the bar extremely high for not only the presentation, but for the entire day. Sucky Wednesday. I'm thinking about you today. It is great that you have such love and support from all of your friends and family. Very inspiring.

    ReplyDelete