Wednesday, September 10th, is the date for my second mastectomy. I wasn't expecting to feel relieved by having this scheduled, so it comes as no surprise that I am not exactly jubilant today.
On the plus side, that fantastic Indian restaurant my dad and I tried to hit up last time was indeed open today. Lunch was amazing. Huzzah for being able to taste and digest my food!
If you'll recall, Dr. Medical Oncologist was going to present my case to her institution's Tumor Board. As luck would have it, Dr. Surgical Oncologist was present at that Tumor Board meeting and so had already spent a lot of time pondering my case before my appointment today. She chuckled at what a lucky girl I am because all four surgical oncologists in her department were present at the meeting. Apparently this is a rare occurrence. This is lucky because they all weighed in, and Dr. Surgical Oncologist was able to present me with the consensus today.
Consensus: My case falls in a medical "gray area", and the surgical oncologists will support whichever decision I make.
Well, at least we can all agree on the ambiguity of the way forward. Huzzah for a consensus? Bleh.
Since my diagnosis in February I have thought that the breast has to go. This was muddled by new data brought to my attention in recent weeks, but given the "gray area" I fall back on my need for the breast to go. Mastectomy for me.
Decision made! And it is the right one!
At the time of mastectomy we will also do a sentinel lymph node biopsy to determine which one(s) to remove.
I thought that getting some of these things nailed down might provide a bit of relief from the turmoil, but so far it hasn't. I'm just so tired of all of this. I'm just so tired.
Home stretch. Home stretch home stretch home stretch.
I've got to get out of this funk so that I can enjoy the special day that is Friday--my ninth and final hard chemo. 15th lifetime. That's pretty fantastic! My dad and my friend S will be joining me. We're going to have croissants and coffee. It's going to be lovely.
It's all going to be lovely.